Thursday, January 3, 2013

words simply can't express ..

On my BabyCenter birth board, there is a family (whose strength is phenomenal) and a beautiful baby boy, named Logan, battling with SMA (spinal muscular atrophy).  Their story will move you and make you thankful for all the people that are still able to be in your life.  They remind me that each and every day I get to spend with my baby and loved ones is an absolute gift from God because at any moment, anyone can be taken away from you.

I actually think about their baby boy, Logan, a lot.  He is so beautiful.  It breaks my heart that they have to go through this and that there is no cure for him.  Lately, I've found myself to be more cautious with my words so I don't inadvertently hurt someone's feelings.  I've found myself trying to see things through other people's eyes.  In general, I have been just a little bit more compassionate.  Thank you to the Ruth family for putting strength back in my heart once again.  They inspire me to be a better person.  With their strength, they can inspire anyone with a soul to be a better person.

Go on over there and show them some love and support please:

Tuesday, January 1, 2013

happy new year!

Happy New Year!  I can't believe that it's already 2013.  But then again, I guess I say this every new year.  As I get older, the days and months and years seem to all mesh together.  It's already going to be 4 years since we moved up here from LA.  I kept thinking when we moved up here that it was going to be a temporary fix.  I was so wrong.  In the years since, we've bought a house, three vehicles, and welcomed into our lives a beautiful baby boy.  As far removed from the city as we are, I'm finally able to make my peace with where we live and life is perfect.

As with every coming of the new year, I reflect on the past year and 2012 has been good to me overall.  It has definitely been the year of the greatest change and the greatest sacrifice.  With the birth of Evan, I've realized that there is so much more to life.  Honestly, I was pretty selfish and materialistic.  I couldn't even fathom having children because I wasn't ready to give it all up.  The moment I heard his first cry when he was born, I cried and that's when my life truly began.  He's taught me so much in these past 5 1/2 months that the past 27 years couldn't even teach me.  Patience, love, kindness, compassion -- we can attribute these new found qualities of myself to my baby boy.

He's pretty wonderful & I just know it's going to get better from.

Here's to a fabulous 2013.  Cheers!